Balance Beam Me Up Scotty

I love, love the game show Wheel of Fortune.  My favorite puzzle to solve?  Yep, you guessed it.  Before and After.  Someday I hope to experience the thrill of buying a vowel, but until then, I will just keep doing my daily life as we know it.

This past month has been one of quiet reflection for me.  There is nothing I love more than getting alone with a cup of coffee and spilling my thoughts out over the lines of my journal page.  When there is an emptying of my mind, there is a filling of my heart.  I sort out the lies and remind myself of the truth.  This is one thing that Josh helps me with on a daily basis.  We often stop and think, "What is the truth?"  How often do we just go around letting thoughts fly in and out of our mind, or sometimes mouth, without thinking?  This is something I may struggle with more than the average person.  This thought sorting has taught me the value of reflection and waiting.  Wisdom waits.  That has been my motto over the last few months.  I have been making progress, but still have times where wisdom doesn't wait, rather it acts like a bull in a china shop taking out everything in the way.  For those days that wisdom doesn't wait I have to forgive myself.  I have realized that if you can't forgive your own faults, how on earth are you going to forgive the faults of someone else?  Speaking of forgiveness (nice segue, huh?), I wanted to share my latest aha moment in the before and after category and it has to do with forgiving others as I am learning to forgive myself too.  Before:  I used to think that when you forgave someone, that meant you had to do your best to become BFFs with them and go out of your way to make things right, peachy, copasetic, what have you.  After:  I realize that you can forgive someone and not have to be involved in their life.  Sometimes, you have to move on and separate yourself from that person......and it is okay.  It takes great wisdom to figure out who would fit into this category, because on some days I am sure we all could end up forgiving everyone and then becoming a hermit.  Winky smiley face.

Until next time....

Keith Urban Myth
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Ok, ok...I'm done :)